Is there really no meaning...

So I have interesting beliefs. I love and believe in science, but sometimes even science can't explain stuff. Or maybe it can, I'm just not as educated as I should be in the field. I know certain chemicals make us feel certain things, its been proven.

I believe in something higher than ourselves also. I don't know if I would call it God; however, I am not trying to solve that question.  I trust and believe in thought. Thought is a powerful thing. It is easy to manipulate and control. It is also hard to break free of certain ways of thinking.  When you do, your whole world changes. Nothing seems like it cant be done. What does science say about that?

Are coincidence really coincidence?  The probability of certain things happening the way they do is very slim. It falls in the critical value?  I can't live like there is no meaning to life. Until I find it, I guess I just have to believe the meaning of life is to constantly learn and adapt while growing.

In the movie, A Bug's Life,  these flies have a conversation about going towards the light. Fly 1, "Hey, stay away from the light." Fly 2, "I just can't help it. It's just so beautiful." Then Fly 2, gets zapped.

These are the kinds of things we are teaching our youth of today. That if you reach for the light, you'll die. Now that's a crime, if I've ever heard of one. How can we teach people to not love or know to love. To not know how they truly feel inside or at least not listen to it. Or people not knowing what they want from life. That saddens me. To find it,  is quite hard. Many people spend there whole lives searching and never find it. I wish you all the best in finding it. Once you think you have keep reaching for it, the feeling will just get better.

Fear is a thing that holds many of us back. Don't let it trap you. You have nothing to fear. No matter what happens, in the end, you'll pick up the pieces and be stronger. Follow the light, if you listen it's calling your name. 

Managing two

So I start another blog. I needed some more direction than just the journey that is life.  So I started something  new http://bcwmhoms.blogspot.com/, check it out.

Hair styles

It was time for a change. What do girls do when they need to add a little fare or sparkle back into themselves? We change up our look, by getting a new outfit or  hair style.  Not to sound materialist or vane but it's true.

Clearly, I chose a new do.

It's really hard to find a good stylist. Especially, one you click with and trust. As I walked into this classy salon, I felt so out of place. I had my jeans and "All I need is love," shirt on, surround by well dressed older women who would be scared to take the jump I was about to take.  Out walks May, a little trendy Asian, with an A line hair cut, with five inch heels on, from her appearance I knew I was in good hands. She stood out from the rest of stylist and we immediately hit it off.

She asked me why I was going for such a change. I hadn't really given it must thought. It was just something I kind of felt. As looked at myself in the mirror, I blurted out, because of a boy.

She replied, "Wait, what?"

I said, "O no no, I want this hair cut. It's because I was dissed and I need a clean slate." And she agreed and told me she did the same thing. From there the connection continued to build. We bonded over music and events. I left with possibility of exchanging favors when I get my license, now that's what up.

May at Estila, hooked it up. The hair cut was way to expensive, but it looks super cute. Next time we are going shorter, Pixie.

FYI: Look out for the new blog, Boy crazy while wearing your heart on your sleeve.

Whatcha you want...

The journey can't really begin until you have places you want to go.  When traveling without a direction, one just goes in circles. Never building or never growing. But maybe we have to go in circles, so we can wobble into the directions of our goals.

You need to set some first though. See a future, have some wants from life. From all the ups and downs, I've realized it's about what I want bitches!! Not anyone else.  I need to express that.  It's hard being shy sometimes.

I want to add to peoples lives; yeah that semicolon isn't just for winks. I want to help people want to be better human beings. I guess you have to be one first love.

To die happy or having been.

I want to have experienced love to the fullest; yet, let's save procreation for my girl. O don't you worry, I will spoil your little ones like they were my own. This might sound selfish, but I like my body the way it is.  My VJ is not trying to work that hard and get deformed. Plus, they are so cute and fun but they just have to be able to go back to their parents. I rather be a kid than have one. Plus animals are easier to train, they don't say no.

 I want the magic to be there. I'm not trying to force the spark if it isn't there. For everyone sake, let's hope its not a windy day, or at least face away from the wind, duh girl, it's not going to light that way.

I want to own a house in San Francisco. It will be the shit, like out of a magazine, roof top access, hot tub and the works. It has to have that modern minimal look meets green. I love it. Can't forget artsy.

Must have my own businesses. I will  run this city. I just have to show them what's up. It's me son.  Ok ok, more action, less talk. On it.

I want to from my own family and what a family is to me.

I want to be able to do everything I love. Find those directions and go for it. Don't take no for an answer. I  get what want. I just have to work for it and be patient. One step at a time. Baby steps, girl.