Sometimes you just need to smile

Shake it off, get you're charm on and keep dancing, girl. There are plenty of fish in the sea, so just smile and strike up a conversation. You'd be surprised by what you'd find or let fall into your lap if you just smiled. As Britney says, "hold it against me," I so will. Keep doing you while rockin that happy face :)

Follow your heart

I can't say this enough. I guess I need to start acting upon it than. Thoughts are powerful, and actions are often the outcome to thoughts. Would you categorize talking as a thought or an action?  in most regards, actions say more. People actions and thoughts even have an affect on people and it changes things.

So we should follow our hearts. But what is the heart? Is it something that just experiences pleasure or is it something more? How do you follow it? Is the heart really in your head? Is it something that just interprets chemicals, like the nucleus accumbens? Can we prove it exists, the heart that is?

Is the heart something we are programed not to follow? Logical decision seem to be more valued in society; Yet, it appears  they never make much sense. And appearances don't say much. No one is prefect. LS-you know I love you!! And you're so right, no one is too good for me. Thank you!

You can't give yourself to someone. People are amazing and blow my mind every day. People must pay the cost to receive the benefit; therefore, savor your flavor.  A, you're amazing! You're a beautiful genius who is inspiring.

Life is an interesting journey. It seems to be two steps forward one step back.  There is no evil? Ok, so I'm doing what I do, which is me. Suck it.

Time has run out

Everything has been eye opening.

I can't take this hand me down anymore. Thank you to everyone who is trying to get me on the right path or the path I need to be on. It's time to focus and put in the work. It means more to me than I can say. Enough talk, more action.

I want this. I'm going to get it. I want to be good at school. Can I be a smart nerd who is cool? Being a loser won't and doesn't exist in my mind. It's time because time is running out. I'm taking my education for granted which is not ok. I'm staying longer in school than I need to, to graduate because I want to get where I want in life. Yes we need to let things happen but sometimes you need to make them happen. I need to make this happen for myself, or down the dark rabit hole I will go. I rather take the path that has the light I need to see. Well sometimes we do need to take the risk and just jump in.

I'm wasting money not getting all I need from schol, which isn't cool. Plus not to mention the waste of brain power, and storage. I'm not being efficient with my cognitive economy? I think that make sense somewhere.

Plus I need to be the person I know I can be. What I'm doing isn't enough for me. In that case, I need to give it more. It is true, it's the people you surround yourself with. I want to add to others lives not take from them. There needs to be this give and take, im not giving as much as I normally do. Time to find balance where it is neeeded. thanks again to all who have came into my life. You have a place in me, and you have inspired and pushed me. I'm sorry I haven't been living up to it all yet, but I'm getting there. Thank you

you can never create enough...

This weekend was intense. Everything is just intense, as I like it. But I think I need a break. I need to figure it out. What makes me wake up every morning? Do they call this relaxation? I like to know how to do that with the mind. Thats mediation, as I see. Must learn this, for some weird reason I feel its something you have to learn from someone. I think reading about it might be hard. I guess we will find out.

I got ask about my motivation this weekend, which is really cool. Thanks C, you're beautiful. I dont think about that often. I think about the right here right now and the pleasure it provides at the moment. Yet, this instant gratification is going to drag me down.  I need to find out what my life plan is. Do I focus  on money and stablity or do I choose my passion that is challenging? I dont really know anymore. Ever been afriad to have all that you wanted in life? That power is kind of scary. Do you posses it, heck, do we?

The friend zone

"Friend zone sucks," was the answer to the hang man game that Darwin and I played, which is totally true. Have you ever been put in the friends zone? Lucky for me, I've havent expressed much of this. However, It's really weird being on the other side of this coin. And just like my hang man game stated, it just sucks.

I've been told by some it's best to think that everyone wants to sleep with you. Lol, is that really true? Do we know when people are into us in that matter? Or is just simple, they aren't that into you. I love that my essay is about this movie. Clearly, I need to break it down. Or is it just part of the game? Do people have motivatives? I believe so, yet is it the best way to look at human behavior?

I guess now you must question what is a friend? How do you seperate the two? Is being placed in the friend zone discussed or shown? Body language is a sign. Read the signs, don't see what you want; yet, see what is actually being presented. By the way, Darwin smells amazing, just not today, ha ha.

Good luck to staying out of the friend zone and maybe you need to address your wants clearly. Yay for human intimidate interactions!!

You never know...

Do we really see the truth or do we see what we want to see?  How do the stories we tell effect how people interrupt them or us? I just want to see and know the truth. I could care less what it appears to be. What is it actually? Is performance and rapport all that matters in life? Than I'd rather take a cash course in that. Where do I sign up?

In my eyes, trust is earned and is easily taken away. How do we be what we want to be? I think I still need some guidance, but maybe i just need to listen. I don't know how. Sometimes things are just so relevant to life and other times I'm screaming to see the light. When the beams hit I hope the sensation will waken the one inside. Or are they just daydreaming?

Many people just had their worlds rocked...

An earthquake hit Japan and a lot of people were hurt. There was such an after shock, people here in San Francisco were warned about a possible tsunami. Fortunately, we did not experience anything intense. But I want to take a moment and give my thoughts and wishes to all the people who are suffering from this catastrophic event. Suffering is the down fall to life, but; yet, we still have to experience it. No one else can judge one's impact or quality of suffering. Now let's be grateful for this day. It's a hard thing to do for most, including myself, but maybe you will see the world a little different today. Have a wonderful experience today and pay your respect.  

Facebook Stocking and Addictions:

Man, today has to have been the topper of toppers. I meet the coolest people and had a real college experience!! I love school a lot now :). I think I decided I need to be a lesbian. I want to learn to pick up women. I wonder, if I do the things like in The Game, can I get some? he he. Ok so, I cant take complete credit for this, my creativity aunt wanted to do it, and I would love too. So, shave my head and get a tattoo is what I really want to do. I have no reason not to, its just  I haven't created the prefect crazy tat to go on my skull. But any who, I love this girl, because she said, "You'd look good with a shaved head. People would think you were butch, but you'd get a lot of P." She said the actually word he he. I didn't want to get that personal on my blog just yet. Come on, I don't have very many post. Suck it, I want a chick, or maybe I inspire to be like her, in certain ways that is.  But fantasies rock, so keep on keepin.

School: Freak out moment.

Hey, have you ever loved to do something? Like say, for example, learning. I love to learn. I'm constantly reading about something new or finding more info on things. I spend a lot of timing taking notes in my journal. Do I need to question more?  I truly enjoy learning, whatever it is, I don't really care. But why am I so lazy? Or is it the 15 million things I put on my plate? I have no clue, but reality just has sank in and if I want to do anything worth while in my life I need to step up the A game, literally.  Because whatever game I'm working with right now just isn't doing it. I want to do it. I would love to get paid to do research for a living. Id love to be a professor. But my work isn't showing it. I need to do the work. I don't have any other choice. OK, I can have just one weekend a month of freedom, as long as I am social when I study, and ride my bike. Let's do it. I'm ready to work. Time to hit the books!! 

WHy is it so hard

Treating others how you want to be treated, does that really exist? Because I feel it doesnt. Or maybe it does, its just that when you try changing your actions the other karma is still in effect. Im sorry for all the crappy things Ive done, but you know what it could always be worse. Selfishness and revenge always seem to out win the good. I cant, wont let it win. As I keep telling myself, listen to the heart and follow it. 

Viral blast

Man what a weekend!!! I miss those days of being wild. "Andrea is crazy, but a good kind of crazy!!" lol, this is the way people view me. The funny thing is I'm not that crazy just a little wild, and all over the place with lots of energy. What can I say, some people just can't hang. This is the first post on the go! I've been having a little trouble finding inspiraton; yet, this weekend provided enough. Don't even know where to start.

Being honest and humble is what I learned, well was told to be. I guess I need to work on those.

Sorry to all if I was a flith tornado, but I think I keep it under control. But definitely partook in too may things, too many drinks and inhales. Hey, that's how rockstars party!!! Do we speAk honesty when intoxicated? I believe so, well something was speaking. Ever meet people who are just so cool and awesome, yes that is the best way to describe it, that you can't help wanting to get to know them more? Sometimes things just turn out funny. Moving slow is the way to go, I think I've finally learned.

When you tell someone they are bad, you don't really mean that. They just make you crazy or you think or have been influenced that they could be bad. Not good for you or not a good person. What makes someone a good person? I think we all have badness running through our veins! Where is your badness?

The speed of light....

Im not exactly where I want to be, but guess what, Im some where. Do I appear to be a disaster? I guess if you look at numbers you might think so, but inside I love what I do so...Is it ever to late? Or did things go to fast? I hope time is on my side. I need to put my face in more books and my head on more pillows. 

ever think...

Ever think sometimes your haunted by your past and you will never be able to adapt to things again. To trust. After seeing so much game, how do you still fall for it?