Hobbies that turn into rabbits

Literally, that would be kind of cool. Yet, they seem to turn into habits. In this case, my habits will soon turn into positive healthy things, because those are my current hobbies. Its hard to learn to live to slow down and enjoy. Its so easy to fall in or out of holes,  as a rabbit it sometimes happens. However,   Kundalini is about to pop up, its becoming a great passion of mine to learn about and explore.

Kundalini reminds me of the concept of the Matrix, however the unplugging takes place within the mind. If you cant learn to unplug from the mind there will always be pain, or the feeling of unsatisfaction, Eckhart Tolle taught me that; However, its Soulworks that is helping pull the plug. Its about learning to live in the now and listen to your body, along with the energy that surrounds it. Don't forget to breath, it the most important piece. But really, if you think about the Martix in the concept of spiritually. You can see Neo is fighting for the light, but lives within a dark system. That system doesnt have to be beautiful, because Neo has learned to tap in his mind and take control of it. His overall consciousness is not  apart of the negative system, in which he wants to distroy.

Which kind of light do you want to be? How about being the one that you were meant too. I like the sound of that, but becoming that light or seeing it takes a lot of work. You have to be able to give, receive and surrender.

xoxo

Rebellious Mind

About a week ago, my mind decided to rebel against the changes I was trying to implicate into my life. I was doing so well on my mental and physical health. From connecting, I noticed I wanted to make healthier choices, to surround myself with nature and my new obsession with wanting to get a pet, first a hedge hog now a guinea pig.  Yet, my mind had a different plan, and wasn't going to adjust easily to my new changes.

After a few wonderful days, my mind started to play tricks on me. I began to worry about nothing. I started to  spin down the negative spiral and make unhealthy decisions. According to Eckhart Tolle, "all cravings are the mind seeking salvation or fulfillment in external things and in the future as a substitute for the joy or Being." I found this to be true by falling back into my old habits. I craved sweets and junk like no other. I found myself being completely unbalanced in every accept of my being, wanting to much or not at all. I was being so lazy and all I wanted to do was sleep. From this struggle I found my body became weak and fatigue, so I listened.

The mind can be a destructive tool. When things are going well in your life, you can still fear the success or control you have. When you fall into the dark hole, it can be hard to come out. Sometimes you need a rough shock of reality or a mistake to set you back on the path of silencing the mind. When you want to live away from pain, you need to step out of the mind. Eckhart Tolle also mention being in the present can help lessen the pain. At this current moment, this is what I seek.

Remember to be patience and kind to yourself when you release or search.
XOXO

Massage

Being a certified massage therapist makes me bias towards massage; however, I truly believe it's a key to helping one connect with themselves. Massage has many physical and emotional benefits, such as, increasing circulation and reducing stress, along with much more. On my journey, massage as been almost a daily thing, and thus has been one of the biggest pieces in making me more connected. By being a giver and receiver of bodywork, I have become more aware of my body's needs.

While laying on the table, the therapist provides the space for me to be able to relax and experience the love and healing my body desires. The body has muscle memory and can store experiences. Sometimes as a client, you release and let out.  For example, I've had many experiences where my body just wanted to seize or my limbs would twitch uncontrollably. At first, I didn't understand why. Later, I learned it was a form of an emotional release. Then it reminded me of how as a child I had epilepsy and had two seizures. One that was so bad, I was sent to the emergency room and had to under go many tests. While looking back at this release, I think it was a way of my body letting go of the experience. Of course, my mind only can recall this in bits and pieces; yet, the body was aware and remembered. Just like how the mind gets to decompress while dreaming, I believe that the body can do the same during massage.  Along with the trembling of my body, I have had tears form and roll down my face, while receiving from a male colleague. His touch was so nurturing and gentle. It felt as if he was healing me from all the hurt I've exposed myself to from the opposite sex.  These contacts helped me in huge ways to release and bridge the gap between my mind and body.

As a healer, I have witnessed some amazing things. In a chakra balancing session, I've seen pendulums that assessed chakras that were producing all kinds of energy. After focusing my intention and laying hands on a client, and then reassessing, I've seen pendulums show more balanced chakras. While palpating for knowledge, I have had someone have an emotional release on my table, in the forming of hard sobbing. I have had clients in the school clinic, give feedback saying the session was exactly what they needed and I took away pain that they had for months. All this proving to me that I am on the right path.

Along with positive feedback, I have found a true love to give to others. I've found my peace while in my sessions, almost like meditating. I look forward to touching people and sinking down into the level of consciousness where one can heal and work through things. I had 3 days where I didnt give bodywork  and it felt like an internity. This connection only happens when you have connected to yourself to some degree. From that connection you can then truly give to those around you, and that is the biggest blessing massage has given me. To give love and receive love more.

Massage has lead my in the prefect direction. I've meet some amazing great people, coworkers, colleagues and friends, who live with their hearts open to all who except love. At the moment, my goal is to spread love and heal others through the art of human touch. I currently working at a Network Chiropractic Office called Soulworks. It is like heaven there. Along with working, I'm trying to do a case study with the focus on energy work and it's benefits. The next step in massage is to futher my education an become amrotherapy and reiki certified. This things I feel will bring me closer to what I'm searching for.

In a muscular sense, I am more in tuned to my body and mind. During my massage program, I received a good amount of massage, almost 5 days a week. Now that I have graduated, I am not receiving human touch  daily. It has made me aware of my need for massage and human touch. I can sense when and where I am holding tension.  I am becoming more aware of what kind of touch my body is needing. I know through more massage I will just get closer and understand more about myself, mind and body. Being able to listen and live from my hear is one of my paths in life, which comes from being able to giving to yourself. This is also a form of love. To love others and live from love, from my experience, one must replemish the love energy from within first.

Spread love, light and awareness!!

XOXO,
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An awakening

Have you ever felt confused and not sure of what you wanted out of life? How are you suppose to know, especially is you aren't listening to your heart? What do you do if you don't know how to listen? With all the stress and busyness of modern life, we as humans have disconnected from what life is really about. Many of us have failed to see and experience the importance  of a mind, body and soul connection, while ignoring a valuable organ. Thus, many of us have lost our way on the journey of life.
Throughout our life time, many paths will present themselves from adolescence to adulthood. As I turn 24, I've realize my journey of connecting my mind and body has just begun. This blog is a way to share my story of learning to listen and connect to my heart, while increasing my sensitivity to the energy around me.

Moving to San Francisco was a beginning of a life long adventure. It has had some hard times along the way, from living in Tenderloin without a door knob to working 7 days a week. I'm grateful for all of these times, because they brought me to this door. I moved to San Francisco for school and love. As I attended school, San Francisco State University for a major in Psychology,  I became aware that the path I was going down wasn't the right one for me. Yes, the mind is very fascinating, but it shouldn't control the body. They work with each other in balance.

 After realizing my unhappiness, I needed a change. On a whim or intuition, I signed up for massage school.  This 8/9 month program created an awakening in me that I had shied away from. I started the program on some hard terms, tired and hung over; yet, I finished the program wide awake and with lots of rewards. I entered the program in the eastern segment, which was the prefect path for me. I learned a lot of about the energy flow of the human body, along with a taste of the chakra system. I fell in love with the eastern ideologies.

Most mornings at school, we would meditate before lecture, which I grew quite fond of. I found myself needing more of it. I really wanted that time to be in my mind to either work things out or just to find the silence and peace that seems to be missing in most of us. During one of our guided meditation, we were asked to visualize our bodies and see or feel whatever came up. I visualized what appear to me to be my chakras. In this visualization, I came to find that I was having a blockage of sorts and that some of my chakras weren't generating much energy or light. My fourth and fifth chakra were the most problematic; heart and throat. It was also manifesting in my physical body as well, through my posture and sound of my voice. I also noticed the difference in how I began to interact with others. Also I was having difficulties in those areas, communication and love.

From this visualization I realized I had some work to do. So I began getting informed about the chakra system and how to balance them. Then I stumble on Kundalini while reading the Wheels of Life by  Anodea Judith. I begun to want to know how to awaken the Kundalini, Shaktipat. I felt like I have been going through a lot of changes. I started looking up symptoms of the Kundalini way and they resented with me.  This intrigued me very much. I wanted to get more in touch. I felt by getting in touch with these things, I would become more in touch with myself, body and mind. I started implicating in my life many things that help awaken the Kundalini. 


At the current moment I'm trying to find things that I find enjoyable and feel right to my spirit, in hopes to improve my chakras and completely connect with myself, as to reach my great potential or whatever it is we are searching for. I truly believe my mind and body will change throughout this whole process. I'm interested in seeing how things all play out. So far I have been feeling better then I have in a while. Looking forward to sharing the many ways I am implicating change in my life and to radiate that change outwardly. Here's to listening to the heart, finding truth and spreading the light!!


XOXO, 
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